Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Just a Warning

I am not your kinky manic pixie to be played with when you are bored with basic bitches.

I am not seeking casual sex nor friends with benefits. The idea of such things makes me vomit in my mouth.

I am not an angry brash cunt who will constantly put you in your place. If you don't know how to act, I will kick you to the curb, leave you in the cold, and pray you freeze to death in the snow.

I am not a submissive doormat for you to step on. If you think so, I promise you that I will make the first step and I will not tread lightly.

I am not a caricature of who you envision me to be based on your limited view of the world . Cease your dreaming long enough to know me for who I am or else I will force you to wake.

I am a complex human being with a range of emotions, wants and needs. Simplify me at your own risk...

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Why More Gun Control Laws Won't Help

Guns are inanimate tools. They can be useful or destructive, just like any other tool. You cannot ask an inanimate object to bare the responsibility of a conscious, violent act. They are not alive. They cannot think. They cannot act of their own accord.

The occurrence of mental illness in an individual is often difficult to gauge. Psychology is a soft science and therefore subject to pitfalls aplenty: Psychiatrists have their biases, Big Pharma has pills to push, and the fickle nature of the mind itself make the task fairly daunting at best sometimes. How And even when it's glaringly apparent they suffer so, the afflicted often heal from or learn to cope with said afflictions. Would that not make them recovered and therefore eligible for a gun license? Or should they be condemned the rest of their lives for something anyone could be afflicted with at anytime?  

With all this being said, there are a few points I would like to make:

First and foremost, more gun control laws will not help us curb the violence we are seeing. Why? Because people who dedicate themselves to committing acts of mass violence are just that, dedicated! If you take away their guns, they will find other avenues to express their anger and hatred!

Furthermore, good luck trying to predict who will and who will not be capable of such things. Most people of anti-social persuasion are very good at camouflaging their disdain for humanity. That and mental status tends to change dramatically throughout one's life time. You cannot possibly hope to regulate anything based on such a capricious condition. Don't even get me started on the unwarranted stereotype that most of the mentally ill are violent...

I think we need to concentrate on the psychology of the matter itself more so than anything else. Its all too easy to blame the tool used to enact the violence and not the individual and the society that helped to shape said individual.

This is just my two cents and I do not have the hubris to try to present this as an end all, be all solution. There are no easy answers to the questions "Why did this happen?" and "How can we prevent it from happening again?" but I do not think the answer will be found in the confines of the state and its regulatory powers. 

So lets stop blaming our actions on inanimate objects and have a real conversation about our collective pathology for once. It begins with being conscious about who we are and asking, "why we are so fucking angry, narcissistic, and disconnected?"  If we did that, then we would all have to do some hardcore soul searching on a collective level. But our country is too brash and obnoxious to even fathom that sort of introspection. So we will remain blameless while guns run amuck shooting random people in the streets...

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Participants needed!

I promise I will write something more substantial - I have a few things brewing in my brain and I have been hashing them out. Anyway, I am writing randomly (I have only posted once to be honest) for an online zine called Paradox Polemics. The woman who started it is looking for participants in study she is conducting on suicide. Click the link belong to check it out:


Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Podcast On Attack The System

Back in February I was on a podcast with Keith Preston, MK Lords, and Becky Belding which you can listen to hear:


It was awesome talking to these fine, intelligent people and I encourage you all to check it as well as the their writings:

 MK Lords:


Becky Belding:


Sunday, February 2, 2014

Fucking Vampires

Your phone rings and you reel with apprehension. It's "them again", and you are about to be drained by a person who cannot deal with their own emotions. Sometimes this is completely justified: your friend or loved one is suffering a deep phase of grief from a traumatic event. But in this case, its just a histrionic vampire coming to feed.

Their reasons for being distraught are likely by-products of their own lack of self-awareness. "Woe is me!" "Nobody likes me!" "Why doesn't anyone care!?" All common sentiments bellowed out by this crowd. Personal responsibility is a foreign concept to them, and they will find any excuse not look in the mirror.

Its best to disengage all communication as quickly and tactfully as possible. Politeness is an act of self-preservation on your part. Plenty of vampires have strong suicidal urges,* coupled with a ceaseless belief that the world owes them for their shitty lot in life . This can lead to a homicidal ideation that's comprised of a desire to take out those who have "wronged them" before they themselves seek oblivion. This is, of course, the worst case scenario. Some of them simply crave drama. You do not want to give them fodder for such a thing, still, as it will more require you to expend even more precious energy on an undeserving individual.

You may be under the delusion that you can help these people by "being there". However, in all reality, you simply can't. There is nothing you can do because they refuse change. Being their victim will only result in a fruitless martyrdom.

Move along and be free of their bullshit.

"Many people who walk the earth practice the fine art of making others feel responsible and even indebted to them, without cause. Satanism observes these leeches in their true light. Psychic vampires are individuals who drain others of their vital energy. This type of person can be found in all avenues of society. They fill no useful purpose in our lives, and are neither love objects nor true friends. Yet we feel responsible to the psychic vampire without knowing why." - Anton LaVey

*I do not believe all suicidal people to be of this sort.

This article has also been published here: Paradox Polemics

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

"Disrespecting" Myself

I have heard it many times before, the accusation that if one is too promiscuous or prideful of their body in a sexual context that they do not respect themselves.

The problem I find with this argument is fairly simple: How I am or any other woman for that matter "disrespecting" ourselves by exercising sexual expression and seeking pleasurable experiences in this context? Its as if those using this argument believe that we cannot possibly be doing these things simply because we have needs of a sexual nature.

There are also those that try to justify this finger-wagging bullshit by using recent studies done within the field of evolutionary psychology - but these people seemed to have missed the nuances within the studies themselves. Coupled with the fact that the field itself has garnered much criticism due to a lack of proper testability renders this defense almost completely moot.  

But at the end of the day, its really none of your fucking business what goes on in any other bedroom but your own and the moralistic bullshit that fuels this attitude seems shallow and baseless in nature. I seek pleasure because it makes me happy, not because I lack respect for myself. What I seek may not be what you seek but you don't see me calling you a prude now do you?